Do all Rats born in the year of 1984 feel this way since the Chinese New Year?
1) Everything just does not seem to go smoothly.
2) The simplest thing that you thought would never go wrong, just went wrong. Best of all, found out by your boss.
3) Restless at work everyday. Just can't seem to get your ass off the chair and head home.
4) Feels unlucky all the time, no luck at all.
5) Boss and colleagues just seem to give you a hard time.
I have such feelings ever since the Chinese New Year...
Work
Was supposed to be transferred to another division on 1st March (Sat), that means to say my first day in the new division would be 3rd March (Mon). Current boss wanted to hold me for another 1 month because she thinks the division would not be able to cope without me and another experience colleague who is on marriage leave. She wrote to my new boss and my new boss asked for a compromise i.e. 16th March.
Boss wanted very much to ask for one more week as the new guy will come in on the 18th. So when he comes in, I have a few days to teach him. However, after much discussion with small boss, she decides that 16th March will do.
I feel that all these are shit! She told me things like "I could have held you for 2 years." Is she trying to ask me to thank her? Thinking back, when 2 very experienced colleagues resigned one after another in a short 1 month period, and 1 experience colleague going on 1 month leave, the division still coped as it is. To think without me (relatively newbie), and 1 very experienced colleague, the division can't cope? We can even cope when 3 were not around. Totally bullshit!
Finally got to count down, then extended so back to square one. Starts to countdown again. 8 more working days to go...Finally got to hand over all of my reports except one... The most important one. She still wants me to check the report this month. I am ok with it, but I will not be able to do a complete job because it will be halfway and it's time for me to leave. I still have to attend meetings with her because the newbie who's taking over is not as familiar as me with another report. I have given her way enough notice of 3 months and she thinks it's insufficient.
Everyday, when I go to work, I really dread it because it's either I am clearing people's shit i.e. backlogs, or I am helping my boss type some emails to smooth out the procedures or I am just typing standard operating procedures. You see... All these that I am doing will enable people in the future to benefit wholly. Quoting one of my colleagues: I plant the tree, take good care, ensures it grows into a big tree and people after me get to enjoy the shade provided by the tree, whereas I don't get to enjoy the shade. Totally true! However, darling wants me to think in the sense that at least I know how to plant and grow the tree, the rest of them don't. In life, many things are just how you look at it. "Is the glass half filled or half empty?"
I can only say I look forward to my last working day with them because I really dislike their operations and management. To think they reward efficiency with more work just makes me pissed off. And more to come, because a very very experienced colleague is pregnant. She will be going on maternity soon. My boss's pet. Boss will feel handicapped. I am fortunate I am no longer with them because I know if I am, they will throw every single thing onto me again because they know I have a steep learning curve indeed. Throw my anything and I could almost survive. That is because I bother to open my mouth and ask and clarify. Some people simply just say I don't know or I don't have the time. Again, it's how you look at it. I am just one who wants to learn more and learns a lot more every day in order for me to climb higher in the social ladder.
Wish me luck in my new division!!!
Family
Been having weird things happening in my family. Things falling off from the wall all of the sudden when it's nailed to the wall. Seen Fengshui and my main door's position is in a very bad position this year.
I pray for everything to go smoothly for all my family members and also all will be healthy and get through this year safely.
Wedding Dinner & ROM
Been having slight arguments and small quarrels with darling today, especially. We are both very vexed about the wedding date. We had the Fengshui master calculate an auspicious date for us, but the hotel which we want to book is fully booked by others. When I have the venue, I did not have the date. Now when I have the date, I no longer have the venue. What rotten luck!
Now, I am very disappointed, troubled and frustrated. As much as I want my wedding to be a grand affair, I am stuck with limited funds, no dream hotel, much less to say a dream wedding. Not to worry, everything is going fine between Darling and me and we will definitely make it to the red carpet. Darling, thanks for tolerating my nonsense these few days and I look forward to walking down the aisle with you. =)
On a lighter note, thanks Xin for accompanying me for gown fitting the other day. Really appreciate your time taken off from work to give me comments and helping me make a decision. Also, let me thank you first for all the time you will need to take off due to my wedding. :) Loves ya very muchie *muacks*
Everything is still very unsettled except for the bridal and the photoshoot. OMG! Time's running out! I gotta hurry! It's putting a lot of pressure and stress on me. I hope we can settle this very soon, especially before I move on to a new division, else I think I will be too busy to care for most things. I feel so dis-organised for the first time in my life.
That's basically all my grumblings. For those who have finished reading, thank you very much cos' I know you love me and care about me. Take care, all... and please keep me in your prayers for better luck with everything, work, family, relationship, friendship, health, wealth, just everything la :) I just hope I don't have to grumble so much. Thanks a lot folks.
